So stressed up.

Look who's here.

(just in case u forgotten my face)

*the pictures are all taken from my phone with lousy 2 megapixel camera so yeah, the pictures qualities are obviously not good.

Oh yes, here I am again writing my boring long blog post and mumbling and grumbling like an old single lady as if people outside are so interested to know my life but the truth is no one is actually reading them. I sound so pathetic. BLAH.

I am suppose to be in MPSJ now playing volleyball like a happy kid but thanks to my mum who said that it's gonna rain and refuse to fetch me there, I am stuck in my house again. And IT ISN'T RAINING NOT A SINGLE DRIP.

First trial exams are over (like FINALLY) but guess what? Second trial exams are in 10 more days.  -.-

So, there's no point to be so happy. Waste your energy. Might as well save it for the next 'war'.

Seriously, my school wants me to die. Exams, exams, exams, EXAMS EXAMS AND MORE EXAMS. Dear readers, if I suddenly die ( CHOI CHOI CHOI TOUCHWOOD) you know what's the reason and who to put the blame on.

I hate exams. (who likes exam anyway? You? WEIRDO.) For the whole month I've been spending most of my time in the room studying and studying like crazy, I am so sick of school books right now, I can just vomit if I ever touch it again. But too bad second trials are coming AGAIN and I've no choice. Even if I vomit till my intestines come out, I still have to continue studying.

My room is so freaking messy. If I find a cockroach running around in my room, I wouldn't be surprise. But I am praying hard that no cockroach will step into my room or else I am gonna scream until Shi-yi who's in Australia and Denise who's in Canada can hear me. Piles and piles of books are stacked all over my floor, bed, under my bed, shirts can be found not only in the closet, but on the chair and bed, I really can't stand the messi-ness of my room. I know I am suppose to clean and tidy it, but I am too busy and lazy to do so. That's an excuse, I know. :P

I look terrible now. My hair is so ugly right now, my bangs are gone as they grew longer and longer and I didn't have the time to cut them, pimples are poping out on my face and I hate them, my face is as rough as a sandpaper right now, sometimes I really feel like crying when I look into the mirror, I don't look like Carmen Teoh, I looked like I am ten years older instead, I miss my face.

This picture is not edited at all. Can see my pimples?? Well... OK they're not that obvious in the picture, I look even more terrible in real life.

And I am fatter. Definitely fatter. I've been eating non-stop for the month. What to do, too much pressure.

My bangs are gone.

As I come up to high school, from form 3 to form 4 to form 5, I realise that I don't enjoy studying science. I mean, if you want me to read and gain some knowledge about it, that's ok. But if you want me to read and read them over and over again and memorise them. I really really hate doing so. I don't like science. I don't adore them. Especially Physics. I am so freaking sick of them. And I am a pure science student. I must be the SMARTEST girl in this world.

Some people can just study and study non-stop, they read the textbooks, and then the reference books, they read everything and they don't look stressed up at all. And their results are like, WHOOSH, can shoot your head off. I wonder how this people can do it. I wonder how they can STAND it.

I know SPM isn't the hardest exam in the world, and I know I am not the only one sitting for SPM but seriously I just don't see the point why am I studying so hard for.

For the cert. For your future, so that you can find a job. For scholarships

But the problem is, I am studying for the sake of exams. I am not studying because I wanna know more about that certain thing. I am not enjoying what I am doing now. It sucks and it's stupid. WHAT'S THE POINT?

What's the point???

I miss being a kid.

SPM = PMS.

And what annoys me even more is it's exam month now, and the exams start as early as 7.35am, and most of the time the assembly will be cancelled so we could get back to our class earlier, but everytime, this stupid protocol, which doesn't allow the class doors to be unlocked until our teacher comes, made us wait and wait outside the classroom, at the corridor like little beggars. It's so stupid as it's already 7.30am but the prefects are still refusing to unlock the doors, and exam is in 5 minutes time. I don't blame the prefects 'cause I was a prefect and I know this isn't their fault and I KNOW who's the one who created such 'brilliant' rule.

Why can't you just allow us to go in? It's not as if we're gonna break the tables and chairs and windows without a teacher guarding us. We are freaking SEVENTEEN. Not seven. Gosh.

And the songs. OMG THE SONGS. Every morning my school will play a song, they used to be some pop songs, but recently they are playing some really awful songs. And when I say awful, they are REALLY AWFUL. The melody, the instruments used, and the singer! They don't even deserve to be called as a song, they're noise! The composer should not be hired at all.Our school PA system really sucks so I can't really hear the lyrics. But the melody really is a torture for your ears. What is more we are having exams, and what we need is peace and quiet for us to concentrate. Our mood are really bad, very very bad, plus these awful horrible songs, you are exerting even more pressure on us. PLEASE.

Anyway, one good new, I got an 'A' for my ADD MATHS!!! From a C+ to an A HAHAHA. IN YOUR FACE YOU SMELLY UGLY ADD MATHS! Let's just hope that my teacher did not count my marks wrongly and I can continue get an A or even an A+ for the next exam and so.

Ignore my face. Focus on A+.

Anyway,

I am gonna find a boyfriend like this:

I smell food. BYE. :)